Just before dinner the other night, I took a moment to relax to think about some things.
I didn’t want to scare myself before to go to sleep but isn’t the fact that we are close to Halloween that I’m quite scared.
I seat on my chair next to the window, and I had to admit to myself, whatever I look at these days, it’s hard to be encouraged.
To be honest, I try to encourage myself to drink a full glass of Chateau Trois Moulins Cru Bourgeois Haut-Medoc.
I light on a few candles with a delicate smell of apples and play a soft album just come out a few weeks ago: “Love is the King” by Jeff Tweedy.
I started to drink more French wine recently. I found a lot of French wine in my local shop, and they have a good selection, and the prices are quite reasonable.
That one I had the other night, is a blend between Merlot, Cabernet Sauvignon and Cabernet Franc and it’s densely hued, fragrant and full of fruit.
With the candle and the music of Jeff Tweedy was a kind of magical combination.
Outside was very quiet. Raining a bit and not one person is on the road.
We are in the middle of a half lockdown, and after 10pm no one could go on the road.
No reasons to be there, also. Restaurants and bars are closed for two weeks, and the supermarket has closed at 8pm.
No life outside.
Climate, healthcare, economy, the state of our nation, the next elections in the USA … oh we could go on and on, and my nerves start to rattle at any moment.
Did you understand why I was so serious in the choice of wine and the music?
The colours of the leaves, under the light that comes from the windows of this narrow road, attracted me and distracted me for a moment.
First, I start to think to take my camera and take a picture.
Still, on closer inspection, I saw that outside the rain increased, and I didn’t feel at all to dress appropriately and go out to make a simple shoot.
I feel more tired recently and isn’t just because I’m getting old day by day, but it is because everything has tired me at the moment.
I’m scared to open messages on the phone or emails. Friends with Covid, some with financial problems one got cancer last week and nothing make me positive during the day.
This is why I need an evening like that.
Just what I need in these dark days, I think.
Courage and determination.
Both.
So, I hoisted the camera up from my bag. I started to charge the batteries because tomorrow I will go out, open wide my eyes.
I will catch the cheer cover in the dark but that poking out of the gloom that I was looking.
Because there is a cheery point somewhere, need just to be discovered.
In the end, I think we need to let the ashes fall where they want.
Despite them, we will keep waking up in the morning, blinking our eyes, and focusing on what good we can still do.
There is a lot of good things out there to be done. Believe me.
“The artist is the creator of beautiful things. To reveal art and conceal the artist is art’s aim. The critic is he who can translate into another manner or a new material his impression of beautiful things.”
— Oscar Wilde