People full fill all the restaurants and bars at this time of the year. The Christmas party are everywhere, and everyone looks busy to try to fit themselves in all the party they have been invited.
I don’t remember last time have been a guest at any Christmas Party.
The last 18 years have been so busy for myself, then I didn’t have time to enjoy myself like everybody else.
In the end, my walk last night, in the middle of the town, has been instead of a pleasure, a moment to hurt myself again.
Also, the worst part is that there’s no one else to blame but myself for life I had designed on myself.
Yes, I have lost myself, and I am nowhere to be found. I feel unsafe in this transition of my life, and the Christmas party I saw last night, with all the people so happy, create another crack inside of me.